Can I be real for a hot minute?

๐Ÿ–ค ๐™‡๐™ž๐™›๐™š ๐™ž๐™จ ๐™ฉ๐™ค๐™ช๐™œ๐™ ๐Ÿ–ค and itโ€™s feels really weighty right now.ย 

I break out in tears a lot these days. Iโ€™m not โ€œcrushing quarantine.โ€ I canโ€™t see everything clearly right now. It hit me the other night when I helped Annikah plan a surprise zoom meeting for a friend who is moving away and just a couple days. She canโ€™t hug her before she moves away. Itโ€™s just sad. Then they called the school year and I have to accept the fact that my kids will miss closure with their classmates this year. Anni wonโ€™t get to go on her eighth grade trip or dance or walk in graduation. Iโ€™m sad I missed 2 trips & many other opportunities for meaningful work. I am sad that a business I have worked for 7 years to build is on hold & suffering. Iโ€™m sad that some are using this time to mar the image of God in those they disagree with politically. Iโ€™m troubled that many are underhoused & not safe at home.I know this is what needs to happen and I am on board with trying to keep as many people safe as we can but Iโ€™m just broken hearted. ๐Ÿ’”ย 

I am very grateful for my kids who force me to deal with real life everyday. I am grateful to my husband who listens to me process and cry and for friends who send texts, memes (memes are giving me life right now), encouraging messages & listen to any emotional outbursts while still pointing me to Godโ€™s faithfulness. Iโ€™m grateful for all those working & risking & helping in this unprecedented time of uncertainty.๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ข ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ฅ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด & ๐˜ข ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜จ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ถ๐˜ญ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ & ๐˜ช๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ข ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด. ๐˜Ž๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ถ๐˜ด & ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ถ๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ.ย 

Blessings friends. ๐Ÿ’•



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