Can I be real for a hot minute?
๐ค ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐จ ๐ฉ๐ค๐ช๐๐ ๐ค and itโs feels really weighty right now.ย
I break out in tears a lot these days. Iโm not โcrushing quarantine.โ I canโt see everything clearly right now. It hit me the other night when I helped Annikah plan a surprise zoom meeting for a friend who is moving away and just a couple days. She canโt hug her before she moves away. Itโs just sad. Then they called the school year and I have to accept the fact that my kids will miss closure with their classmates this year. Anni wonโt get to go on her eighth grade trip or dance or walk in graduation. Iโm sad I missed 2 trips & many other opportunities for meaningful work. I am sad that a business I have worked for 7 years to build is on hold & suffering. Iโm sad that some are using this time to mar the image of God in those they disagree with politically. Iโm troubled that many are underhoused & not safe at home.I know this is what needs to happen and I am on board with trying to keep as many people safe as we can but Iโm just broken hearted. ๐ย
I am very grateful for my kids who force me to deal with real life everyday. I am grateful to my husband who listens to me process and cry and for friends who send texts, memes (memes are giving me life right now), encouraging messages & listen to any emotional outbursts while still pointing me to Godโs faithfulness. Iโm grateful for all those working & risking & helping in this unprecedented time of uncertainty.๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ข ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ด๐ข๐ฅ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด & ๐ข ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ณ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ง๐ถ๐ญ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ & ๐ช๐ตโ๐ด ๐ข ๐ต๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด. ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ถ๐ด & ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ถ๐ด ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฆ.ย
Blessings friends. ๐
I break out in tears a lot these days. Iโm not โcrushing quarantine.โ I canโt see everything clearly right now. It hit me the other night when I helped Annikah plan a surprise zoom meeting for a friend who is moving away and just a couple days. She canโt hug her before she moves away. Itโs just sad. Then they called the school year and I have to accept the fact that my kids will miss closure with their classmates this year. Anni wonโt get to go on her eighth grade trip or dance or walk in graduation. Iโm sad I missed 2 trips & many other opportunities for meaningful work. I am sad that a business I have worked for 7 years to build is on hold & suffering. Iโm sad that some are using this time to mar the image of God in those they disagree with politically. Iโm troubled that many are underhoused & not safe at home.I know this is what needs to happen and I am on board with trying to keep as many people safe as we can but Iโm just broken hearted. ๐ย
I am very grateful for my kids who force me to deal with real life everyday. I am grateful to my husband who listens to me process and cry and for friends who send texts, memes (memes are giving me life right now), encouraging messages & listen to any emotional outbursts while still pointing me to Godโs faithfulness. Iโm grateful for all those working & risking & helping in this unprecedented time of uncertainty.๐๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ข ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ด๐ข๐ฅ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด & ๐ข ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ณ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ๐ง๐ถ๐ญ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ & ๐ช๐ตโ๐ด ๐ข ๐ต๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ณ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด. ๐๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ถ๐ด & ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ถ๐ด ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ต๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ฆ.ย
Blessings friends. ๐
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