blick….

…pretty much sums up how I am feeling today. Maybe it is the ongoing stomach bug I have been dealing with for over a week that has me feeling weak and dizzy. Maybe it is that I was pulled over and yelled at by the police yesterday (for talking on my phone which may or may not be a real law here) and got my license taken away now have to go to court tomorrow with both my kids and deal with the corruption and total unknown. Maybe it is because the power situation has been crazy bad as of late. Maybe it is because my hubby left a few hours ago and will be gone for almost 2 weeks and us girlies will be here during Ramadan all by our lonesome. Maybe it is because I am holding onto to worry and fear about our adoption situation. So many things weighing me down. Like so much is out of my control. It is all swirling and making me feel unsettled and weepy. But a good reminder that I am never really in control and a chance to chose to sigh, cry (always), pray, and just be and let Him take care of the rest.

And before Jason left we had a couple of great days as a family and this self take makes joy swell within me and I will focus on that tonight. Because as always I have so much to grateful for and I can chose to say “Thank you” even amidst circumstances I would not choose and situations I do not understand. I can chose trust and thankfulness.